October 31, 2004

Happy Halloween & drama within the family

It's been awhile since I last posted my thoughts. (Like anyone REALLY reads THIS boring blog) LOL! Happy Halloween or like my Wiccan brother calls it Samhain. (Not being Wiccan I HOPE I spelled it correctly) My dear daughter is going as a little devil. At her age it's MORE than an appropriate costume at times. ~wink~ I finished sewing it up last night & she tried it on, horns & all. She looked in the mirror, gets this HUGE smile on her face & says "I pretty Mommy!" & then says "Mommy! You MADE it!". This is the first article of clothing I've made for her & the first sewing I've done in several years. Now I know what my own mother must felt like when I came home & told her how the kids at school liked the shirt (or whatever I was wearing that day) that she'd made for me. No WONDER she loved sewing for us kids.

Drama within the family is driving me nuts! Recently I guess there was a get together of my in-laws....DH & I weren't invited. (no big deal, as we don't talk to these people more than once or twice per year) They call us when they want us to come to a party or if they want DH to fix their air conditioner. Well, my DH's Aunt called my MIL & told her they were saying some pretty nasty things about DH &/or I. I TRULY don't understand this. I did nothing but support one of them during a difficult decesion & DID NOT judge her. It's no seceret that I don't get along well with my SIL due to some things that happened a couple of years ago. I make an effort to be nice & not to exclude her from DD life. The ONLY thing I can think of that would make them WANT to talk bad about us is that they are jealous. YES! JEALOUS! WHY?

Well, we've made changes in our lifestyle in order to allow ME to be a SAHM.

We had our child AFTER we got married.

We recently purchased a small but nice home.

We also purchased a brand new car because we were having TOO many problems with the used one (it was becomming unsafe to drive).

Add to that, we just returned from San Diego last weekend after taking our DD to Sea World & Disneyland. ALL OF THIS doesn't just COME to us. We have sacraficed, made HUGE changes in our lifestyle & scrimped & saved in order to do these things. I guess immature, selfish, spoiled brats with children just wouldn't understand that...would they. I have been pushing DH into a relationship with some of these people & he has been telling me since we began dating that most of them are troublemakers.

My family wasn't like this, so I've always had the outlook of "It's the only family you have. You can't just cut them out of your life". Well, after this, I'm done. I have a decent relationship with my MIL & I'll keep working on the SIL out of respect for my MIL & DH.

With everything going on in the world & all of it's problems, WHY do people have to be so DAMM petty! It really ticks me off sometimes. Well, I have to get ready for trick or treating tonight, as well as get DD bathed, dressed & hair done. Until next time....keep smiling!

October 08, 2004

Dr appointment, heel spur? & stinkin thinkin

I went to the Dr about my heel pain & weight issues. Until Saturday when dh & I took DD to Schnep farms for the Pumpkins & Chilli Party I was walking an average of 1 to 2 miles per day. I had NO heel pain until I changed the brand of shoes I wear. Within 3 months, the pain began. I went back to my original brand of shoe, but the spur had taken hold & he pain continued to get worse. It is now so bad that I cannot walk on it for more than 2 or 3 hours. Pre FLYlady, I would have suffered until I could no longer walk on it at all I'm going in for x-rays on my heel on October 25th. DH has to go with me to watch DD while I get x-rays. Then on November 3rd, my Dr. ordered a Part 1 Physical, which includes an ECG. I expressed concerns about my wreck of a diet & eating habits, I can't lose weight & keep it off & the history of heart disease & diabetes in my family. He made many recommendations & one was to follow a low-carb diet....but NOT Atkins. He also said that any diet that makes you eliminate entire food groups would not be good either. I already KNEW that but he has to C.H.A. like any Dr. My stinkin thinkin was telling me "You did this to yourself because you waited too long to lose the weight" Then FLYlady's voice came into my head & said "You've been making changes in your diet & exercise habits for about a year & you've tried WW & slim fast & a few other things. YOU finally LOVED YOURSELF enough to ask for help & guidance from your DR. You CAN lose this weight 1 pound at a time & I'm proud of you". PreFLYlady, I would have given in to my ST & ate an entire bag of chips & felt guilty & sorry for myself. I know that I sing FLYladies praises often, but I can't help it. She's given me the tools & permission to "put myself on the list" & I've seen great improvements in my life as a result. Granted, I still have a LONG way to go...but with FLYlady's guidance, support from fellow FLY Babies & friends, as well as routines & hard work...I can reach my goals. Even if it's one baby step, 1 pound, 1 meal or 15 minutes at a time.