This Sunday past, we attended a b-day party for my friend 2 year old. Everyone complemented me on how cute they thought I was, how I had really popped, etc. Meanwhile, I'm feeling exhausted & that I LOOK like a complete trainwreck. Monday night I had a potty accident in my sleep. This is the first one this pregnancy but MAN I woke up in a wet spot the size of Lake Erie & I had body pillow between my legs that is equvilent to the size of Hoover Dam! Everything was SOAKED of course & I was SO embarrassed. DH thoughts are, your pregnant honey....it happens once in awhile! Husband or not to pee the bed at age 35 for ANY reason is embarrassing. What happens is that I get SO exhausted from napping all night (waking up every 2-3 hours to pee or readjust my pillows) & then chasing after a three year old all day, that I get to a point where NOTHING will wake me up. I'm not upset or ungreatful that I'm pregnant again, it' s just that the exhaustion, body aches, food craving & food aversions, pregnancy acne, etc get old. To date, I've only gained a total of four pounds this pregnancy. Since I started out at 218 & my OB wants me to keep my gain down to 10 pounds, it doesn't REALLY concern me that much. I guess I'm pissing all my weight away at night or something! LOL! Last night I just completely lost it. My emotions were all over the place. After we got DD put to bed for the evening, I just laid in bed & cried my eyes out. I went on & on to DH about how achy I am all of the time. I no longer know what it is to sleep through the night without being so tired that it's not a restful sleep. I always feel like a trainwreck & I feel as if I look even worse. I have the acne of a teenager. I can hardly bend over at the waist to pick things up off the floor. I'm home alone all day & I can't keep up with the housework due to a lack of energy. I could continue but I won't I was basically feeling sorry for myself & having a blue pregnancy day. DH is great! I don't have much to complain about when it comes to him. He rubs my feet, legs & back when he can tell I'm having touble with them. I don't even usually have to ask. He either fixes dinner or cleans up the dinner dishes a couple of times each week. He changes the litterbox (something a PG lady isn't supposed to be doing due to the possibility of Toxoplasmosis) before my ultra sensitive PG nose detects the smell. Sometimes he even does a load of laundry or two without my asking him. He works LONG hours to enable me to be a SAHM to our child(ren). I even get the occasional bouquet of flowers "just because". Like I said, I was just having a REALLY hormonal day. I felt MUCH better after I got it all out.
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Aw! So great that DH listens and contributes and understands. And footrubs...my gosh are they essential!
It is certainly not easy being superwoman! Hope writing this post helped you vent a little and I hope tomorrow is a better day.
Yes it DID help me to vent. I was blue-ish for aout 3 days but it DID finally lift. I never looked at myself as Superwoman..but if the name fits! I've beenfeeling much better since I listen to my body. No matter what I'm doing, if it tells me to rest or slow down I do. With my 3 year old DD, if I have to rest, I bring her into my bedroom with me & we continue doing what he had been if I can do it & lay down. If not, I let her pick a movie & we cuddle in bed & watch it.I tell he that Mommy isn't feeling good & that I need to lay down. It almost ALWAYS works without any argument from her.
Mary
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