75 things...

1. I am fast approaching my 36th birthday.
2. I married a younger man.
3. I am a proud Mommy to two beautiful little girls.
4. I am married to the love of my life.
5. I met my husband through a dating service.
6. I knew within two weeks of our first date I would marry him.
7. My divorce from "husband" #1 wasn't final when I met my current & last husband.
8. I left a mentally & verbally abusive first marriage.
9. 6 years later, I still am recovering from that marriage.
10. I am thankful I had no children with "DH" #1.
11. I am and always will be Pro-choice.
12. I am Pro-Stem cell research as well.
13. I am a Democrat.
14. I vote my conscience, not my party.
15. I have never voted a straight ticket..
16. I tell people the truth, even if it will hurt ones feelings.
17. I will warn them the truth will hurt before I tell them & make them promise not to get mad at me, then ask them if they still wish to know the truth.
18. I am a pet person
19. Until I had children, I would have NEVER evacuated without my pets.
20. When my apartment caught on fire in my early 20's, I refused to leave until I found my cat.
21. My dog was smarter then I when she ran out the door with my mother.
22. The EMT's gave me crap for looking for my cat instead of leaving my apartment.
23. I told them thanks for their opinoins but they could go take a flying leap off the nearest bridge.
24. I probably wasn't that nice about it just then.
25. The fire was contained to our patio.
26. Now that I have children, I would die protecting them.
27. I now know how my mother felt all of those times when I heard her say "Just wait until you have kids, then you'll understand"
28. I never knew complete unconditional love until I held my own innocent infants in my arms.
29. I am undeceided about having anymore children.
30. I believe in God.
31. I haven't been to church since 1999.
32. I don't miss church.
33. The holy Rollers that roam my neighborhood streets every six months annoy the living $hit out of me.
34. This "list" is much harder to compose than I thought it would be.
35. I have been doing a lot of work on myself in order to understand some of the choices I've made in my past & how I could have made better ones.
36. I have been doing alot of deep emotional healing lately.
37. I have been forgiving myself instead of beating myself up about my past.
38. I had to understand some things about myself before I could forgive myself for actions in my past.
39. I am AMAZED that such a wonderful man had & does accept me...even with all of my emotional baggage & screwed up family.
40. I am not as close to my family (parents & brothers) as I originally thought.
41. I am much closer to my sister than I ever realized after her visit in August.
42. I call my grandparents & grandmother every weekend.
43. I have been doing that for the past five years.
44. I met a lady in Wal-Mart today with a 1 month old baby girl named....Charlotte! We were both a little "surprised".
45. Today I was feeling pretty good about myself & it must have showed because perfect strangers kept walking up to me & starting conversations with me!
46. It felt good.
47. DH even noticed that I seemed very relaxed & happy for the first time in many months.
48. I am beginning to think all of this work I've been doing on myself is beginning to show on the outside.
49. I purchased the material to make a mermaid costume for Charlotte today.
50. I am actually looking forward to sewing for a change.
51. Since I have been taking time to relax before bed, usually go to bed a decent hour & rediscover my love of reading...I have fewer scowl lines on my face.
52. I am talking more & yelling less.
53. I am using self hypnosis to destress & release some of the baggage acquired from my decesions & experiences.
54. I have been successful in my efforts to stop my mother gossiping about other family members.
55. I truly am finally learning to love myself again.
56. My postive changes have shown up in Elizabeths actions & reactions.
57. Since I have relaxed, my infant Charlotte is sleeping better & is a much happier baby.
58. I am happier since I don't talk to my mother or brother more than 3 times per week anymore.
59. I am beginning to think my relationships with certian family members was toxic.
60. I watch too much CNN.
61. I love all shades of the color green.
62. I am having fun planning the landscaping of or soon to be new property & home.
63. The soon to be new owner of our current home likes the way I painted our girls bedrooms & wants to keep them that way!
64. It is surprising because he is a late 50 something single man with no grandchildren...yet.
65. I still take too much comfort in comfort foods.
66. Mount Washmore has reappeared in my hallway.
67. I don't feel guilty about it at all.
68. It's liberating not to put so much self worth in my house keeping skills (or lack thereof)
69. Just because my mom was Suzy Homemaker doesn't mean that I have to be.
70. My house isn't a health or safety hazzard so who cares!
71. I will be stopping this list at 75.
72. I am getting VERY tired.
73. This list has actually helped me get many things off my mind.
74. I often think too much.
75. I am a Libra...100%.