Committing to change

Committing to change
Facing long standing issues
Dealing with the pain

Pain born of actions
From my less than innocent
Teenage romances

Pain born of constant
manipulation by a
Master with a face

Pain born of secrets
Of my own in order to
Protect my family

Pain born of searching
Unknowingly for true love
Without condition

Pain which led to an
Unhealthy relationship
With eating and food

A relationship
That left me feeling happy
As well as betrayed

Now habitual
Food has become a friend
As well as a foe

I have committed
To let food be nourishment
Not a friend or foe

I have chosen
To eat to live and no longer
Will I live to eat